THE WRONG HEROES

WHY?  i wonder in the black community do we celebrate black criminals.  WHY?  i just don't understand it.    from O.J. to M.J. to TROY DAVIS, to the man in PHILADELPHIA accused of killing a cop, and to TOOKIE WILLIAMS in  CALIFORNIA  it seems that ours heroes are thugs and accused and convicted murderers,  WHY?  I remember while living in LOS ANGELES in the mid-90's when convicted killer TOOKIE WILLIAMS  was schedule to die, the head of the N.A.A.C.P. rode out to the west coast on a private jet trying to stop his execution! there were so many black celebrities speaking on behalf of this man i can't even start to name em, some of the biggest names in show business and politics. here was a man convicted of killing 4 people, a 7-11 clerk, who he shot execution style in the back,  then he kills 3 more people during a robbery at a motel. and he's a hero?  WHAT!!  and that's not the worst thing that he did , not even close!!  this thug started a street gang (the crips) who's responsible for the killing of thousands of black men,  just during the period that i was living in LOS ANGELES.   THOUSANDS.  so why are these people celebrated?  i just don't understand it. here at school they have posted these free TROY DAVIS posters all around as if its a given that we oppose his execution,   I DON'T!

DOROTHY DANDRIDGE

A  BIOGRAPHY is the name of the book I'm reading by DONALD BOGLE, I'm on page 366 and so far I've come to the conclusion that ms DANDRIGE was a whore.   I'M sorry, but that's all i can say,  i know that a beautiful black women in the 40's 50's had to sleep with the rich and powerful to get ahead but according to this book DOROTHY is sleeping with just about every and any white man in the industry even though some refuse to be seen with her in public or during daylight hours,  wow!.  I also resent how she's treating her father, her father did not desert the family, her mother did, yet she refuses to meet him when she goes home to perform in CLEVELAND,  not only did her mother break up the family she runs off with another woman! a woman who abuses Dorothy and her sister with horrible beatings and even stick her finger inside Dorothy to see if she's still a virgin,  unreal!  and she hates her dad??   what!!  Well I'm back in school and again i have a full load (15 units) i have some very interesting classes.  I'm about to run outta money,  man its was so good having money for the last month, i spend money like crazy i have no discipline when it comes to money yesterday i spent 20 dollars just on food and i didn't eat any meat, unreal! I spend all my money on food and lottery tickets and I'm on the fantasy 5 tonite cause its 420,000$$$ and I'm all over it, one of my numbers is 9,14,16 31,32.   luck be a lady tonite!!!!

BROADCASTING MYSELF

I STARTED off in LOS ANGELES with a tape recorder then i got a digital voice recorder and in ATLANTA i purchased a video camera and now I'm making full use of it.   I'm on youtube.  yeah baby!!
 i know how to upload my videos,  so man its gonna be a gas, the only setback is my teeth they look horrible!! oh well, I'll get em fixed real soon. my nephew ROY JR just had a massive heart attack yesterday so I'm praying for him he's few years younger than me.  I'm kinda hungry from not eating any meat but i feel better, my brother and nephew is motivation enough to keep me going. gotta go the library is closing

PENNY PRIDE

SUNDAY, yesterday, i went to BUCKHEAD to grab a bite to eat, if you been following me you know that i'm going without meat this month for the first time in my llife.  just one question before i get to what i wanna talk about, is it o.k. for a vegeterian to eat fish??  or can you be a vegeterian an eat fish? well i hope so cause yesterday i had some fish, and it was good.  anyway i finished eating and walked to the corner to get on the bus when i got on the bus i walked to the back and had a seat, well in the seat beside me was a big pile of pennies, just sitting there, so i ask the sistah who was sitting next to em if they were hers, she shook her head with prideful 'NO'  as if pennies was so beneath her, wow! and none of the other folk in the vicinity would even look my way as i was asking about the pennies.  WHAT!  these are not rich folk, not by a long shot, were on the bus o.k? so i proceded to pickup and count the pennies and put em in my pocket, it came to 57,  57 cents and no one on a public transit bus would dare put em in their pocket.  what!!  unbelievable!! and i'll bet you 57 cents that half of these people didn't have 5 bucks in their pockets!  being homeless and poor myself for the last 5 years i know see why poor people are poor.  their dumb and lazy! with a bad attitude to go with it.  i'm gonna be blessed real soon as a matter of fact i'm allready blessed i have a healthy body, mind, and spirit. i'm gonna play the lotto with these pennies, as a matter of fact i've already picked up my numbers this morning, i'm on the fantasy 5 tonight its 300,000 i'm also on the pick 4 and mega,  my numbers are  23-25-34-42-46.  MB 21  I'm telling you right now GOD is gonna bless me for picking up those pennies. i may not when tonight but i'll tell you what, i'm in line for my blessing!

A MEATLESS MONTH

ITS AUGUST and its hot!! a great time to fast and abstain from meat.  becoming a vegetarian has always intrigued me but I've never tried it, I've decided to try it just for this month, also I've decided to fast every MONDAY and TUESDAY of this month and I'm thinking of making this a permanent part of my lifestyle.  next year i plan to not eat meat from MAY1st to OCT 1st just to clean out all the junk i put in my system during the winter months. I'm going meatless this month in honor of my oldest sibling who passed away last week, he was a very accomplished man who did a fantastic job of raising a family, more about ROY after the funeral, a funeral that i cannot make and that sickens me, i just can't afford it and that in itself is embarrassing and shameful, but it is what it is.  I haven't been able to sleep a lot since i heard of his death, by the way i heard of his passing on facebook so that should tell you something right there. I'm doing well in school its almost over(next week) so I'll get a break for a couple of weeks, I've learned so much about computers this summer, its amazing what these machines can do, navigating facebook and your e-mails is using only about 5% of the computer's capability, wow!  well there's one way that i may be able to attend my brothers funeral and that's the lottery, the powerball is 160 million$$$  tonight and I'm all over it my#'s are 1,13,19,21,48 pb21  if i hit i'll call my family and say HOLD THE FUNERAL! HOLD THE FUNERAL!! i'm coming baby!  i'll be there!!

THE NATIONAL BLACK ARTS FESTIVAL

I had a great time at the N.B.A.F. yesterday it was a beautiful day i was right down  front sitting on the grass enjoying the great view.  the jazz was wonderful, what i noticed about the mostly black crowd was that no one was smoking and no one got drunk and no one was using profanity.  it was a different class of people that I'm around these days. well I'm off my forced fast, i didn't realize that i had lost 7 pounds that fast. man!  but i have to learn to not panic when I'm forced into change, i have to learn to not panic when i don't have food to eat or a place to sleep and to have faith that everything is gonna be alright, its gonna turn out o.k. I'm not gonna die just relax and let life flow.   i believe being worried is not only bad for your health its a sign of weakness and mental instability. i know my spirit is hurt by it.  let go and let GOD. the test is, its easy to say now cause I'm full but i need to practice this when I'm hungry and i have to sleep on the concrete like i did the night of the 10th.

STARVING STUDENT

MAN am i hungry! I'm starving!  i ate a big meal on the 4th at the A.A. clubhouse and it was good, we're supposed to make a donation but i didn't have anything to put in the basket, the man look at me kinda funny and i felt bad but i just didn't have it.  so i get in line for the food and I'm loading up cause i don't know when I'll eat again i love bar-b-Que beans and i put so many on my plate until this girl behind me commented "my god you must be hungry"    she thought i was just being greedy, its terrible when you eat for the next day because you eat too much and that's not good, i kept going back, i ate 2 hamburgers and a hot dog with plenty of beans and potato salad.   you know I'm hungry cause I'm sitting here writing and thinking about food. well my food stamps come TUESDAY thank GOD. if i can just make it till morning I'll have some breakfast at this church that serves at 6:00 on Thursday and Friday. I'm reading SUGAR RAY LEONARD'S new book and its good,  i didn't know that he had such a drug and alcohol problem. gotta go to my class.