A LETTER TO DADDY

HEY DADDY! HOW YA DOIN? HAPPY FATHERS DAY!  daddy I'm writing this letter to tell you some things that I should have said before you passed but I was too young and immature. first i just wanna say thank you! and that i love you. thank you for providing for me and my siblings, I never had a hungry day, you were one helluva father. thank you for a safe and clean home, thank you for the good morals and values and work ethics that you showed us. you are my hero! my role model. daddy you were such a hard worker,  after putting in 8 hours at GEORGIA-PACIFIC you would come home and hitch the mule and wagon and in the summertime go and plow gardens, in the winter you would go out  into the bitter cold and cut and sell wood.  thank you daddy! and sorry for not being much help. daddy the older I got the more i appreciated you and momma, man we were so lucky! daddy if i was just half the man that you were i wouldn't be in this situation I'm in today. daddy you didn't smoke, drink, or swear and you never hit momma. thanks daddy.   well daddy I certainly didn't follow your example I dranked, smoked, and I curse like a sailor. the good news daddy is that i quit smoking in 1985 and I quit drinking and drugging in 2006 hopefully for good.  daddy alcohol and drugs has ruined my life it started in high school when you were still alive and got progressively worse. I lost a good job in CALIFORNIA 15 months before my retirement after being sober for years. it all started on fathers day in 2004 in HOLLYWOOD at the PLAYBOY JAZZ FESTIVAL trying to pick up this chick  who was drinking.  for the next 23 months i destroyed everything that I had worked for. I couldn't stop.  well the good news is that I'm sober now and I've been that way for the last 49 months. and I'm healthy, they say good health is the best revenge.  daddy you have 2 grand kids by me and I'm sorry to say that i haven't been the father that you were, not even close! I married a girl that I shouldn't have it was while in the middle of my alcohol addiction in the army and my mind and judgement was clouded. I was warned but i didn't listen. The marriage produced a daughter who I'm happy that you'll never meet.  thank god!  she wasn't raised with the morals and standards that you instilled in us. she's a MATHENEY in name only.  I have a son in CALIFORNIA he was born in 1994 and I haven't seen him since he was a month old. I didn't know that he was mine. but I believe his mother is from a nicer family.  well daddy don't worry about me although I don't have a lot of material things I'm happy and I'm on the right track.  I'm going to college now and I'm enjoying learning.  daddy please pray for me I use to love to hear you pray.  THANK YOU DADDY.  I LOVE YOU AND HAPPY FATHERS DAY.   WILLIE MATHENEY  1900-1972